Life's really strange, beautiful.....and a bit cruel.

Those of you who know us personally will already know this, twelve days ago Darren's Dad had a massive heart attack and died. It's such a horrible thing to happen, sudden death is so cruel, especially for those left behind. It really makes you aware of just how all those cliches are true... seize the moment, you never know the minute and so on...
I've been busy being grateful that both my parents brushes with illness have turned out ok, well so far anyway (still keeping my fingers crossed for that situation!). I thought we would make this a happy year for both families, unfortunately it's now been tinged with a sadness that we didn't expect or want.
But I know that Norman (Darren's Dad) wouldn't have wanted us to allow ourselves too much sadness, he was so pleased that we were marrying, so happy for us to try and achieve our dream honeymoon.
So even though we've discussed postponing the whole thing, Darren (and it has to be his decision, it was his Dad.) has decided that we go on with our plans.
I can't tell you how proud of him I am, there aren't words good enough to describe how I feel. He has been an absolute rock for his family, even when I can see it in his eyes he just wants to sit in a room and let his grief take over. And once the organising and legal stuff is over I'm sure he will, but I know that my boy also wants to get on with his life and do what we both believe is the point of us being here.... laughing every day, and appreciating the little wonders and beautiful moments that we get to have together, in other words to live life and love it.


Jane xx